The aim of my life is to survive it....

Hi there.... ;)

Today, was again a stressful day... I wasn't just yet in the office as my colleagues heaped up with jobs and instructions....
I really hate that if you enter and they don't let you 5 minutes to arrive at the office!

Today I had lunch with my honeys Fabienne and Gabriela. It was very funny and we chatted, like ever, a lot... Then I'd english.... I don't know in which constitution I made my last homeworks.... I made so many horrible mistakes.... After this shock I was really abject and helpless. I will have my writing exams in a few weeks....

Afternoon I worked again... Was more easy... Sabrina instructed me to her mandate and helped me with my duties... She's so a lovely lady!!! I like her very!

After working I went back to my past. But I didn't know at this time... I visited one of the most important person, currently in my life, Tina. She's in the crisis intervention centre in Berne. I was very happy to see her and she was also happy to see me. She was fitter as I awaited... She will left the clinic at the 4. November and I'm happy for her or not, because she likes to be there... And I know that turn back to the daily grind could be also hard from depressive people. I wrote a few lines before, that I came back to my past...  First I was never at a crisis intervention centre... But I had a bit more than 1 1/2 year a little burnout. Fortunately I got operated a few days (maybe 2 weeks) later at my jaw and so I'd a break for a month. I was at the hospital and had also an psychologist who obeserved me. After 6 days I left the hospital and was for a month at home... The first two weeks I didn't left the house because I was to weak and still depressive... The first time I left the house was very curious... I was back in the reality and that feared me...
So many people and noises and and and.... It really shocked me, that I'd problem with normal things.

Today was also hard to see people who can't manage the daily grind and I know, that many people couldn't understand or imagine this feeling or problem. But a depression is a disease and it could affect every person... It's really hard if you can't do the easiest things and you only angry with yourself...

Honey's I'm like every evening very tired and will go to bed.

Love you all!

Melly